So you dive into the graybox out of guilt? Because you think that living in the past will somehow make up for it? Because you're wishing so hard for a chance to say you're sorry that will never, ever come?

I don't know what happened, Kasumi, so I can't say whose fault it was, but I can say that if he loved you- really loved you- then he wouldn't blame you for a second.

And I think seeing you like this would break his heart.

He was important to you, so mourn him. Mourn him for as long as it takes. No one would begrudge you that. But living in the past only denies you a future worth living.